Still Daddy's Girl

Today, I'm going to go to the hospital with my mom while my dad has another cardiac cath test done. This is the umpteenth time he's done this, I cannot believe how hard he has to battle with his health. He's still always so upbeat, and nice, and patient, I can hardly imagine how he does it. How can someone be in that much pain w/arthritis and neuropathy, cardiac problems, back problems, diabeties, etc, and still be happy? He's an example for the rest of the world, I'll tell you that much. I know that I may seem fine on the outside, but on the inside I'm pretty much a mess. Maybe he masks it like I do, but I just don't think so.
Every time something else happens with him, I panic. He's my pops, you know? I can't imagine my life without his always witty remarks, the best hugs in the world, and the broadest shoulders to lean on when you need it. Say a prayer today, blog world, for the best dad in the world. One more time, Dad. I'm sorry that you are always going through this, its not fair. I love you, Daddy.