A Day Off

My husband & I are taking the day off. Together. Without children. I can honestly say that I have no idea the last time this has happened. I have the most amazing mother in law, she has had the kids most days this week & still is pushing us out the door to get away. I'm in the show-me-state, you know, so I won't really believe it until we are about 50 miles out of town and I can take a breath.
I know my boys need a fun day, too, but that will be tomorrow. For today, its just the 2 of us. Do we remember how to do that? Its so funny to think we were together for 10 years before our first son was born. What did I do every evening, was it an amazing thing to sleep in our bed alone together, without little feet in our backs or faces? How could I have possibly spent the time, which I have so little of now.
So, off we go into the wild blue yonder.
Hello, old friend...remember me?

OH MY GOSH SOMEONE READ MY BLOG!

I know this sounds childish, but yesterday, for the first time, someone has read my blog. I'm kindof excited, I didn't think I'd ever be read by anyone but myself. Thank you, ladies, for reading, it was very nice of you to leave your thoughts to me. I really appreciate the kind wishes. As of right now, we are in a holding pattern w/my aunt, and your prayers do help.
I have this crazy dream of becoming a writer. My husband always tells me that I could do it, but I never knew how to start. I think that blogging has given me some idea of what it would be like to actually sit down and type. Just start with my thoughts, you know? Kindof crazy when you think that I'm actually a pharmacist and extremely horrible w/english, grammar, etc. Give me an algebra equation any day of the week, but proper pronunciation, forgetaboutit! So, I'll pretend I'm working hard here at my computer, putting my thoughts out there in cyperspace. And, enjoying it all the way.

Aunt We

Its been a while. I haven't had much time to breath much less blog. So many different things, where do I begin?
My Aunt We, short for Marie, is dying. She has been placed under heavy sedation in the hospice unit of the hospital and will only be here on earth for 3 to 5 more days. I say this with a very heavy heart. You see, Aunt We was the strong, oldest sister of my mother's 7 siblings. She was the one that took care of everyone else, she was the rock. Its so hard to see her now, thin, sick, bald from chemo, just a distant vision of her old self. She should have been the one to stay forever.
After all that our family has been through in the last few years, you would think we would all be fine. Aunt We buried her husband 25 years ago, her oldest son & oldest daughter are both deceased also. But, she persevered. She was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer over 3 years ago, and has come back fighting.
That damn cancer came back, this time with a vengeance. It spread to her brain, and now to her abdomen. Her intestines have virtually shut down and now, the pain is horrible. She has been sedated and may never wake up again.
Bless you, Aunt We, I love you very much. I just know that Uncle Joe, Joey, & Debbie are all up there waiting for you right now, I guess we've had the luxury of having you this long and its their turn. I hope that this horrible stage doesn't last long, that you pass quietly, and your pain is gone. You'll be with your hubby again, good ol' Papa Joe, I'm sure that he's smiling, smoking his cigarette and drinking his coffee, knowing you'll be next to him soon.
Much Love,
Teresa

Back Home Again

We are moving back into our 1st house that we've ever owned. Its a strange situation, really, and I don't have enough time to relate the why's or why-not's. Just suffice it to say, I feel like I've gone home. Yes, this house that we've lived in for the last 3 years has been home, just because we were in it. But, walking into that other house, climbing into my bed at night, I have a peace that I haven't felt in a while. My almost 3 year old has never lived in this house, but he's taking to it very well. Also, my husband did the most amazing remodeling to the place since we left that I don't want to leave it! We are going to only stay here for a few weeks, actually, because we are moving into our beautiful victorian home that was built in the late 1800's, that needed quite a bit of fixing up to make it livable. That, will be exciting. For now, though, I'll just keep on going.

My Life: The Ride on a Swing

It feels like every other time I write my mood changes. One time, I'm happy, another I'm down again. Honestly, I'm down most of the time, I just try to act like I'm up. It may last even a full day. Then, it hits me again. The headache. The anxiety. The itches all over. My desire to scream and cry and why me? Why do I act like this when my family is amazing, my husband is great, my children are wonderful. But me, not so much. I feel like Santa when I look in the mirror, the "shook when "s"he laughed like a bowl full of jelly" part. My head hurts. All. The. Time. I'm tired, all the time. We are trying to move, get paperwork ready to sell a big building, fix up the house we're moving into and pack up the one that we live in, work on selling ZRII, manage all of our properties, ,, oh, yeah, do I have kids to take care of, too? Not very well, unfortunately. I think that the WII has become my babysitter. I should be paying it. They haven't gotten their bikes out 1 time this summer, and its almost August. I keep thinking that praying is going to help. Or, the outrageous dosage of Lexapro that I take. Or, I'll just wake up and it will all be better. Oh, how I wish....

St. Louis Zrii

I am so excited about this new adventure that we are embarking on. We have become ZRII representatives here in St. Louis, MO. This new business is so exciting, I can't wait for it to continue to take off. I really like the product, it seems to be doing great things for both my husband and myself. Also, even my mom, the hardest woman to convince, has begun taking it and has noticed a big difference. Lets keep this going!
check me out at: www.stlouis.myzrii.com

Finally, A Contract

Keep all fingers and toes crossed. We've just received a contract on a property that we own that is a major money drain as well as a lot of hassle. Its way below our asking price, but at this point all I want to do is sign and run away from it. Please let this go through. It would take a major pain away as well as over 3K a month in mortgage payments. Please.